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[02 Sep 2002|01:46pm]
She said "I don’t know if I’ve ever been good enough
I’m a little bit rusty, and I think my head is caving in and I don’t know if I’ve ever been really loved
by a hand that’s touched me, well I feel like something’s gonna give
and I’m a little bit angry.", well

This ain’t over
No, not here
Not while I still need you around
You don’t owe me, we might change
Yeah we just might feel good

I wanna push you around, I will, I will
I wanna push you down, I will, I will
I wanna take you for granted,
I wanna take you for granted I will

She said "I don’t know why you ever would lie to me
like I’m a little untrusting when I think that the truth is gonna hurt ya and I don’t know why you couldn’t just stay with meyou couldn’t stand to be near me when my face don’t seem to want to shine
cuz it’s a little bit dirty." well

Don’t just stand there, say nice things to me
I’ve been cheated I’ve been wronged,
and you you don’t know me, I can’t change
I won’t do anything at all


Oh but don’t bowl me over
Just wait a minute well it kinda fell apart, things get so crazy, crazy Don’t rush this baby, don’t rush this baby
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[01 Sep 2002|10:02pm]
I wonder if anyone would be so nice as to donate a lj code to the needy? I'd totally adore having a new journal.. but will it happen? doubtful. no one out there is nice enough to give me a code. I love you all too! Anywho...I think I'll be single forever ;/ I've been so lonely lately, It really sucks. *sigh* I also want a new navel ring (I still have the one in that was put in there when I got it pierced!) I want so much, none of which I'll get. I want to be happy, I don't see that happening in the near future.. I'll just be lonely. That's okay too. I'll end this now because its just random stuff the popped into my head that no one wants to hear about.
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[31 Aug 2002|11:38pm]
please don't pretend you know me, because you have
no idea what it is to be me. do not pretend youunderstand my pain, because you don't and neverwill. forever consumed by life and always drowning inmy sorrows, but i live like that. accept me
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[30 Aug 2002|10:48pm]
GUESS WHAT?! We won. 26-13. Midland Valley offically SUKS! That is THREE years in a row. Ok but anyways! :) Shane got a livejournal. YAY! Shane is my ex bf and I love him bunches but he doesn't believe me? :( go check him out... http://livejournal.com/~nightcemetery
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[30 Aug 2002|03:52pm]
Stomping Grounds. Hah! Midland Valley WILL get beat tonight! :) Uhm. Yea I'm all hyper and stuff now. I'm going out to dinner and then to the football game (that we will win, by the way). We had a pep rally today. Fun stuff. The football players all hudled together in the middle yelling "GET CRUNK" and then the spirit guys joined them and well..needless to say it looked like a big orgy (as Ashton said) :D haha.
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[27 Aug 2002|09:25pm]
Today was a very emotional day. It was my father's birthday. We had cake and ice cream and sang happy birthday and all that fun stuff :) THEN he called everyone into the living room and told us all he loved us and that he knows he has hurt each of us all in different ways and that he was sorry and he would always be here for us and just a whole bunch of other things that made us all cry. I know I know some of you might think this to not be something so emotional but you should probably understand that my dad has a hard time saying things like that. He's never said I love you to me or my brothers. It was touching and really meant A LOT to me. I now have a whole new prospective of life. I want to be a good daughter. He has three other daughters from a previous marriage but they don't really stay in touch as all of my family is in NY. Although, his youngest daughter Melissa died in a car accident and things like that make me realize my dad might not act like the best father figure a person could have but he has been through A LOT and I respect that. Tonight just gave me even more of a reason to respect him and love him. He's a great guy. I regret things that I've said to him before but there really isn't anything I can do except to say sorry and not let it happen again. It won't =) I~love~you~daddy!<3
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[25 Aug 2002|04:15pm]
Rock On! I&apos;m...Punk!
Which Music Type are You?Find out!
Ooh...I&apos;m Rachel!
Which 'Friend' Are You?Find out!
Fuckit, I&apos;m Sara!
Which Angelina Jolie are you? Find out!
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[25 Aug 2002|03:51pm]
I haven't updated in awhile. I don't think anyone reads this anyways? Oh well. My new aol sn = Kellykinz; someone IM me :] <333
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[20 Aug 2002|04:02pm]
*I'm the marsha fucking brady of the upper east side, and sometime I want to kill myself* ah! that was from Cruel Intentions, I absolutely <3 that movie! Mike=cool :P He was actually nice to me today! I feel special. I miss Dremus. Yeah....more random pointless junk...mucho luv to Dremus! =D
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[19 Aug 2002|07:31pm]
school has been somewhat...eventful! We haven't really done anything..thats probably why its been "eventful". There were two fights this morning (that was probably the highlight of my day!) Two girls were fighting over some guy, now thats just sad. I would never fight over a guy. I haven't met any guys worth fighting over...yet! [i *heart* dremus] He's a sweetheart :D We ran 5 laps around the gym today for volleyball and I really need to get in shape /: but thats what you get for being a lazy bum all summer, huh? I think I am going to start going running every afternoon. I guess that is all I have to say, sort of random but thats okay :)
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[16 Aug 2002|06:52am]
Dremus is gone :( I miss him. I don't know when he will be back... I have his number so I might call him sometime unexpectedly, I wonder what he would say to that? I don't really care though. I miss him to much and he hasn't even been gone that long... =(
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[12 Aug 2002|06:40pm]
ok. today i went back to school. i was so right. it was awesome. i really love it. =] After about a year of arguing back and fourth, a friend of mine called me today and asked him if i was still mad at him. Of course I'm not, I never was before. He is too cute to be mad at. I saw Dale, I won't touch on that subject but I really do feel bad about the way things worked out over the summer and hopefully soon I'll get the guts to appoligize. All in all, I had a good day :)
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[11 Aug 2002|12:19am]
I was supposed to go visit Dremus but I couldn't get on here and get the directions so that kind of screwed that up. However, I have them now so don't have to worry about that problem. I really need to get over my whole trust issue with guys, but when every guy you've dated has used you; its a little hard to do. I feel that Dremus is someone I trust though! I'm hoping to visit Dremus after my first week of school [thats right, I start school Monday] I hope to start a relationship with Dremus because he's a sweetheart and he's sexy...and i <3 him forever + a million! Lol! I do care about him A LOT and I want something to work out for us whether it be us being together or with someone else because he deserves the best. Dremus<3
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[05 Aug 2002|07:15pm]
Happily ever after,thats how they want you to think it will be, but its not,not in all reality. The deaths,the tears,the fears,the falls. Thru it all we still go on.
The broken hearts,the cheating friends,So much pain that never ends.The fake smiles that seem to make everything ok.But not for you,because you know the pain wont go away.Bright and cheery,oh so weary
Because inside your heart is breaking in two.
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[05 Aug 2002|09:21am]
the real world soundtrack;
1. Jimmy Eat World-Bleed American
2. Thursday-Understanding (in a car crash)
3. The Used-Box Full Of Sharp Objects
4. AFI-The Nephilim
5. The Rise-The Fallacy of Retrospective Determinism
6. Unwritten Law-Take Me Away-Unreleased Track
7. Thrice- See You In The Shallows
8. Deftones-The Boy's Republic-Unreleased Track
9. Sinch-Something More
10. Brand new-Jude Law and a Semester
11. Dashboard Confessional-Saints and Sailors
12. 36 Crazyfists-An Agreement Called Forever
13. Haste-Engine
14. Hoobastank-Pieces
15. Julianna Theory-Bring It Low-Unreleased
16. Coheed & Cambria-33
17. New Found Glory-Something I Call Personality- Unreleased
18. Jersey-All Rise
19. Taking Back Sunday-You Know How I Do
20. The Movie Life-Walking On Glass
21. Get Up Kids-Overdue

yawn; I guess ^that^ means it is time to burn a CD :] I want three more piercings (industrial, tragus, & rook), I dont think that I will be getting them until I move out of the house, either. My parents flipped when I got my tongue and belly button pierced..I couldn't imagine what'd they say If I got those although it is MY body; they really shouldn't care :)
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[04 Aug 2002|11:39am]
hey babez; I have no one to talk to. I'm being bitched at for everything not being perfect. I do everything around the house (only because my brother is stuck up his gfs ass 24/7, and i dont want to hear my mom bitch because it didnt get done) so my parents decided to go out last night and they came home and who was washing the dishes? could it be kelly? it sure the hell was. She still wants to bitch at me though and doesnt say shit to my brother! My family drives me crazy and i've decided to be rebelious and im done doing shit for my mom...then just maybe she'll appreciate the things that I did! One more week until school starts! and I have a few goals...for the year
1; get better grades
2; go out more often
3; read more books
4; stop complaining so much
5; TRY to be nice to people
6; make a webpage
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[02 Aug 2002|03:20pm]
I got my results today. I'm still kind of stressin it, but I think its really ok. =) I guess my paranoia is what was making me so sick. I feel 1o0% better now! so yeah, im a happy camper ;D
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[01 Aug 2002|10:23am]
i fixed my webcam! :D
school starts in 12 more days!
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[31 Jul 2002|04:51pm]
I apparentley screwed my camera up.. who the hell knows. It pops up and then minmizes down to my toolbar and wont let me restore it to where you take pictures..i dont know what happened :( anyone wanna help me? I miss my webcam; I wanna take pictures /:
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[30 Jul 2002|12:44am]
Matt's being a complete jerk. He'll be all nice one minute and then do a complete 180. He was a pretty cool person and i enjoyed talking to him but fuck it..im not trying to be his "friend" anymore. I've been really depressed lately for a reason some of you may or may not know..if i consider you a good friend and i trust you then you probably know. WELL, i told the wrong person and he decided to make a joke about it and tell everyone like its really funny. I cry everynight and I dont care who is making a joke out of it because it is obviously something their little minds cant comprehend! all i have to say to that is grow up!@* On a better note, I want to say thank you so much for all of you who have been supportive of this :) It really means a lot to me. School starts the 12th, hopefully that'll take my mind off things.. all my <3 to kev!
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